”Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?”
This question from Jesus to Peter really tells us of the love Jesus had for Peter and in extracting the universal truth of Jesus question, the love he has for each and every one of us. We can appreciate several issues Jesus is addressing in this passage fro verse 15 to 17. These issues in our Christian life are not easily identified and can make us act just in the same manner Peter did in denying Jesus as his master and leader.
It tells us of a sequence of actions and attitudes we automatically go through in our lives, perhaps daily although unaware we do; we are no better than Peter!
The passage deals with love, the love we should have for Christ, which is a reaction of his infinite love. The sequence is one of love to betrayal to repentance to service, and it needs to be analyzed at each step.
Lets talk about love. In this context is the love relationship Jesus had with Peter. We know God loves us infinitely and with such patience and compassion that we forget often to realize this, thus living a life of undo guilt. But his love for us is so wonderful he already knows how and when we will betray his love for us. This happens usually in the struggle of the lost battle with our flesh, we need to realize we have no power in ourselves to win this battle, It is evident in Peter’s betrayal how even after witnessing the life of Jesus, the greatest teacher he could ever have for three years, Peter was so quick in denying he ever knew him. The love here would represent our understanding of our faith, our belief system. We can intellectualize our faith and convictions all we want but if we remain just students, children in Christ we will betray our Lord, there is no escaping this since it is a natural stage in what is supposed to be our growth and progress in Christ.
We often are too content in remaining in this love, the one that Christ takes us by the hand and our lives are but blessings and loving experiences. You can easily spot a Christian in this stage of the path to Christ. They boast of how much God has blessed them; they have acquired a lot of evidences in their lives to suggest they are in the truth; good family life, neighbors, jobs and church positions. Yet they have not been tested, they have not seen their source of strength in the faith, beaten, made ridicule of, crucified! This testing can be experiential or intellectual. Experiential in that prayer, when we need them the most are not answered in loss of livelihood or loss of socio-economic status and loss of loved ones. Intellectually it can be a challenge of ones beliefs when the experiences of life do not quite square with our beliefs; the lack of knowledge when confronted with science and or other beliefs; and lack of confidence our beliefs are actually true. This area of lack of confidence could last a lifetime if it is not corrected and can be a chronic betrayal state in the believer, a very sad reality found within our groups. So the “love” that we profess can be indeed a chronic state of betrayal.
Betrayal has many disguises but the most obvious is the sanctimonious attitude. This attitude makes us believe we and only we have the greatest grasp of the truth of God and we push it outwards to the entire world. This attitude betrays love in that it usually defends its wall of righteousness behind Scripture itself by bad theology or hermeneutics. It depends a lot in personal experiences or group specific culture and or ways. It seems true in interpretation of others testimonies and experiences, the fuel for this attitude. In fact if the person only knows how to see something through a narrow window of reality, his hers realization of it is quite limited. One of the greatest walls is their belief that everyone is guided to their actions by the Holy Spirit, thus not needing instructions or advice. This notion of “direct’ knowledge” is the greatest wall of this attitude and one that makes the heart hardened and betrayal is a way of life in their actions an justifications for their actions as Christians. You can easily spot these Christians dwarfs (they have a spiritual DNA disease that won’t allow them to grow) by their unloving actions towards others.; Always siding with “the law” and or legalistic dogma which they justify, again, with Scripture (usually not having good theology behind it). They feel good about themselves at the expense of the problems of others, always quick to judge and never respecting hierarchy in Christ kingdom and church. They focus on blessings and never on sacrifice, they wont witness because they don’t know how and defend their ignorance in the will of God in their lives, content only to be church goers who their only participation in theology is limited to church operations an social context. This wall of “I have the Holy Spirit guidance” will make them spiritual midgets because they have no intention to learn, it is too hard for it would mean intellectual engagement and they have convinced themselves that standing behind the wall of ignorance (the love stage above) is a lot easier. And it is, but they will never have the potential for being tested towards real growth in Christ, they remain forever as a disciple who’s Christ was never beaten, ridiculed, crucified.
Repentance: After the betrayal (most Christians experience as a chronic condition), there should be repentance! This is the real beginning of the progress intended by God in our lives, one not many actually achieve, why? Well first it involves betraying your betrayal. Let me explain. In your “normal” way of doing Christianity you have worked for many years into a betrayal condition and you have gotten use to this condition, it is a chronic one. Your attitudes of un-love, gossip, feeling holier than thou and the like has gotten you ingrained into a life of lies, deceit and justifications; and you don’t even know it! It is impossible to repent if you think you are fine and your Christian life is in no need of correction. So in order to even approach the next step in your Christian life progress you need to realize your condition of betrayal.
First of all it take your willingness to examine yourself honestly, not comparing yourself to the evils others do, but to search for your own. Questioning yourself is the first step and it is necessary to realize your betrayal. This examination can’t occur if you have incomplete data (bad theology) to even allow introspection into your life. That is, your first move here is to acquire real knowledge of your intellectual beliefs. You most start by reading, yes; not only the Bible, but one that has exegetical and hermeneutical application notes; usually an application-study Bible. I have found the best to be NLT but I recommend you purchase (yes, it takes money!) several versions including paraphrases. Second you must purchase (again money) a good dictionary (ask your librarian, it doesn’t have to be a Biblical one) and have the ability for critical thinking (usually acquired when you get an AA degree in Jr. College). Now you start getting the idea, don’t you? Well read proverbs 2:1-11 and you will get an idea, go ahead and read that passage now! Read anything you can get your hands on in Christian Theology, from St. Augustine to Gary Habermas; God didn’t waste his time having theologians writing the wisdom of God for 2000 years, and it would be disrespectful of you to think this work of the Holy Spirit throughout the last 2000 years is just nonsense. Part of examining yourself honestly is questioning where does this attitude of disrespect towards God comes from. If our God is the God of history it means we need to learn the lessons others learned so as not to make similar, or worse, new mistakes in our understanding of who we are and who God is! This is in fact how you repent from your mediocre knowledge Christian life, so that you become a better Christians God can actually use for His cause.
Repentance means you are convicted by the Holy Spirit of the betrayal in the condition you have been, a distant follower of the passion of Christ and denying to even being his friend. You need to realize your sanctimonious life is disconnected from Christ sacrifice and that you don’t even qualify as His friend, since your lack of love, your apathetic life towards growth and your complex of superiority makes Christ ask you for the third time; “do you love me?”, that is “are you even my friend?” This is a real question brothers and sister for we often times treat our own less than friends, as a matter of fact, we are contaminated with a sense of enemy to fellow believers and friends to the unbelievers! You need to realize what you have done to Christ during these last 20 years or so in church (less if you are a newcomer). You really need to be sad, deeply sad of your attitudes towards the Gospel, brothers and sisters in Christ, and about your miserable waste of time learning nothing for these so many years. The lack of ability to witness effectively, the lack of understanding definitions (starts there) such as “God”, “Love”, “Justice”, “Grace”; and in terms like “the destiny of the un-evangelized”, “Gods original ideal for man, current condition and prognosis for mankind” . You really need to learn why Christ is necessary for the atonement of man, why God couldn’t just forgive humanity from heaven, for forgiveness has a price!
This is the beginning, the conviction of the evil in you after the examination of what your beliefs tell you your condition as a fallen creature. Then the repentance* (going back to a higher plane) takes place in the correcting of the evil within you. You can’t say “oh well, God can do that”, no; because God himself asks you to repent, to change your evil ways to correct your steps. But in order to do all of this you need to learn how, and this is what “believe” as a command means. To repent is to change but in order to repent you have to learn how (believe through learning). This believing, this learning in order to repent is a process, it will not usually come to you by supernatural means: that is not normal, that is the exception, that is not the way we learn how to be conscious and further that is not how God intended man to progress. Scripture itself is an example, for why does it take 66 books written by 40 authors through the span of 1400 years, if we just could get all that by the “Holy Spirit” directly telling each and everyone of us, “the elect” how to do this? It is obvious one has to read Scripture and it is also obvious that our minds would only get a glimpse of the written word had not God made available interpretation of His infinite word through 2000 years of Christian theology!
Repentance is a process, one painful analyzes of who we are and what is our progress so far. True repentance doesn’t just stops at understanding the pain (when Peter cried after he denied Christ), no; true repentance is the surrender to Christ’s love in our corrected lives and further acknowledgement we do love Christ by our willingness to serve Him. But we can’t get through service until God gives us the power in his command to “feed my sheep”. There are three elements in the three times Christ’s asks Peter if he loved him, global, individual and relational.
The first comes as global “do you love me more than these”. That is, when we compare ourselves to what others are doing; are we any better? The questions is a statement, don’t tell me you love me more than “these” (other believers) if you are just doing worse things than they do. Here one can appreciate that though others abandoned Christ in his suffering, Peter who was closer to Christ, actually denied him publicly whereas others were never put in that position. This means to us that our sanctimonious attitudes and our dogmatic ways in which we unloving attack one another is a greater sin to God, a betrayal far greater than most others. This talks to leaders of churches, pastors, evangelists etc., more than to mere members of congregations. The betrayal is a lot greater and so it is the repentance that this betrayal calls for. And this talks to us ,mere members of congregations as well, who have been put in such a society where knowledge and theology is out there to be freely grabbed yet we reject this opportunity in our active ignorance (we don’t want to learn anything) and continue betraying one another and God himself.
The second “do you love me” talks to our individuality, our introspection and realization we need correction and are willing to change, repentance. Knowing who you really are, what you really believe and then why (reasons) you believe it, is what God is asking us through Peter. Have you really repented? Have you really understood your behavior, attitudes and actions towards others? Do you feel the pain of betrayal or are you numb to it by the sanctimonious idea you are “elected”, “saved”, or “better than others”? What is it you don’t realize when you read that all your righteousness is but filthy rags, what? This second questions really drives into Peter and into us the fact we are very, very distant from a Holy God and that we can’t really perceive his will for us unless we realize the following.
The third “do you love me?” is a call to true repentance, one that drills your most inner instinct for God. A reflective “are you even my friend?” for “friends don’t betray friendship as you did”! Here Christ is telling Peter and us as well “well I know what friendship looks like, but you just showed me the opposite”! It asks us about our actions, of love, compassion, friendship, brotherhood, students, disciples, followers. In other words are our actions attitudes and understanding looking like what love looks like? Do our actions show what compassion, discipleship, brother, follower (of Christ and our superiors) actually looks like? Or are we in a chronic state of betrayal? “Are you even my friend?” talks to us from a direct call by Christ to us, wanting us to realize we do in fact need a deep friendship with him before we can boast of his disciples, servants, and vessels. He asks you and I ; what kind of friend is an unfriendly person? What love are you declaring is needed when you yourself can’t sacrifice you ego for others?
If the enemy of my enemy is my friend then the friend of my enemy is my enemy. Likewise if I am an enemy (showing an obvious lack of love, compassion and friendliness towards another) to God’s friend, what does that make me? Definitely not a friend of God! You may want to excuse your enmity to God by trying to say’ that “friend” of God is really an enemy; but you just did bad theology for you can never know this! Give you a hint; “My sheep know my voice and come to me”! Using bad theology here is interpreting that by the call of another sheep others know where the Sheppard is, and “by their fruits you will know them” interpreting sheep for non-sheep! In other words when you use Scripture anyway you want without proper theology it is very easy to justify your betrayal and though you may want to further justify this by the lack of good theology available, you are still wrong! It is the responsibility of every Christian to get this right: You are responsible for your growth in Christ and this include not betraying the natural way in which humans attain knowledge, studying reading, investigating, analyzing!
Service: Once true repentance has taking place and you have completely surrender to Christ’s love in wanting to be your friend, now you can be in the service of our majestic savior. By truly showing what love, friendship, compassion, follower (as opposed to always being right and wanting to be a leader), disciple (student and not teacher) looks like, you become closer and closer to that level where God can call you his friend. You can’t be an enemy to God’s friends; you can’t show disdain, hate, unloving acts, and prejudice towards them or even feeling superior to them. Once this ,which could be a life-long endeavor is attained, you can turn your application and resume of life to God and wait (as oppose to “feeling” God as hired you) for God’s work. This process should really tell you the difference between you and those God has already employed in his service in ministry. It should humble all of us with a deep respect for those who God has appointed to lead and watch over us.
Once we can have a good spiritual resume, meanwhile we are hired (called for ministry) by God, we should be humble in our path to follow, one of sacrifice (verses 18-19) and understand we will die for Christ by showing what love, friendship, compassion, really looks like. We have to prepare our churches for the hard times ahead and that can’t start from a betrayal state. We really need to repent of our ways by re-claiming the higher knowledge God has given to the church in these past 2000 years. Re-pent means going back (re) to a higher (pent) place, the place God wants us to be, and if anything can tells us how to achieve this is Christ’s example, infinite humility in that being God he became a man!
Verses 20-21: Our faith and love for God has nothing to do with how others work and are used by God. If we compare and or criticize and or admire others, we won’t grow as God’s friends to Him, our friendship to Him is unique, he and us, no one else! We should not prejudge ministries nor criticize others for what they are doing in the name of Christ, nor should we have “celebrities” to follow and glorify. Celebrities in Christ are an oxymoron. Everyone with greater knowledge than us is there not for our praising; they are there to teach us exactly how we can attain their understanding. A PHD in divinity that can’t teach his flock greater understanding of Scripture than an unlearned humble pastor is guilty of spiritual envy, a sign of betrayal! The job of a highly educated Christian is to teach others his knowledge by using his greater understand and really under-stand (bellow God) by teaching others exactly what he knows, nothing more!
Verse 23: How can we misinterpret Scripture? Here even the ones hearing Jesus’s statement didn’t get it! The rumor was that this disciple would never die…Likewise by lacking the proper tools in theology exegesis and hermeautics. we can end up way off from God’s communication with us. Here is an example of the comparison and or criticism of the previous paragraph. Jesus is simply telling Peter “what is it to you if he doesn’t die like you will?” In other words, I will deal with you different than with him, what is your problem? The idea is that in our pursuit of the truth, we can’t rely too much on the status or achievements of others let alone compare ourselves to them. We have a tendency to do this and in many a group all teaching is reflective of the so called vices of others, they themselves have nothing to offer, no news to announce, just criticism and or praises of admiration of celebrities! This is simply another evidence of bad theology prompted by the pre repentance betrayal we find ourselves in todays evangelical Christianity.
”Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?” It is a questions to us all, lets embrace it in the love of Christ!
Blessings!